You're My...

Serendipity.

Thursday. October. 10th. 2013.

I don't even know where to start.

Where did we start? 

When did we start?

What did we start?

You're crazy, loud, hilarious, sweet, silly, fun, thoughtful, spontaneous & so much more!

& it all started with, "Hi, I'm Joey."

With three simple words I was swooned. 

Have you ever met someone &  everything went 'click', well- here's my 'click' 

            To start things off right, we're working on being friends. Just putting it out there so there won't be any confusion.  But let's answer the three W 's, well in this case the four W 's.

     

Who, When, Where, & What?

1) Who?     

     Well for starters, everyone meet Joseph or as everyone else knows him, Joey. He's 20, from town, & he takes amazing photographs. Oh & did I mention that he's blessed with an amazing voice. You can find him on Instagram: @joeysamante 

2)When?

      We officially met on August 31, 2013. But really we knew each other through mutual friends & Instagram. Slightly sad knowing we met through social media but hey, sometimes things happen that you're not in control of. We've been following each other since I was a sophomore in highschool & im graduating this year so even though we've only met this year- we kind of know each other's lives as of the last two years, haha.

3)Where?

      We met in heaven. Well technically we met in a parking lot next to an apartment building somewhere in town at 2:30 in the morning. But we made our way to heaven, the Haiku stairs in Kaneohe that is. It's this massive, illegal, possibly fatal hike along the mountain ridge neighbored to the Pali Hwy. You climb 3,922 steal plate stairs to the top of summit of a mountain- but long story short, we met adventuring.

4)What?

      That's the golden question, what did we start? To me, we started our journey- an adventure. This chaotic, insane, crazy: adventurous journey. An adventure that will be so worth it in the end. I can't begin to tell our crazy story but to summarize it; you opened my eyes, you guided me, you turned on the light. You make me happy & that's all that matter. I hope I can do the same for you, but let's continue our adventure as friends & we'll wait for our time to start a new one.

To say the least, we've gone on some pretty spontaneous adventures, let's recap:

The first adventure we ever had together, we went to Heaven. 

We were accompanied by mutual company of Rachel, Zech, Malia, Irina & that one guy I can never remember the name of. We didn't make our way to the top but we all watched the sunrise. You say I made you nervous with my lack of fear of heights, but you made me nervous with how content you were with life, with your new perspective- you made me nervous. After we made our way back down & had breakfast at Denny's, we had some really nice forceful bonding time while you drove my car back to that parking lot & everyone else fell asleep in the back seats. This was the way we met & there's nothing I would change about it.

Or that on time you saved me from town. I can't thank you enough for that day, you went out of your way for me & you made my holiday spectacular. It was fun sitting in traffic with you that day- this was the day I met all of your friends, well most of them anyway (you have a bunch of friends haha) I like your car & your little scratched pot leaf that came with it. We swam out to sea & you taught me about having a relationship with God, I saw your passion & it grabbed my soul.

What about the time we met "halfway" for the first time & our journey truly began, it wasn't the end but the beginning. Shortly after we learned that we suck at being apart haha. You sang to me the first time that night & I was awed. Thanks for singing to me even though I have to beg you sometimes heehee. This was actually from the second time we met up but this will have to do.

Then there was this one time where I forced you all the way down to Kahuku to watch my senior cheer fest, I don't have a picture of us from that day but I remember just wanting to see you. It made me happy that you just like cruising & you came to a school function even though you hate school.

This morning was one for the books. 

We adventured up to tantalus & at two in the morning we decided to head back north. We watched the sunrise together for the first time & we were exhausted, but it was okay because we were together. You also "forgot" your ukulele, but eventually sang no songs to me because you're too humble. Thank you for always accepting me as the potato that I am because I always look pretty crappy when I see you, sorry!

Somewhere in between you brought me church for the first time in a long time & I had a blast.

It was so different from my church & I got to see a whole new side of you. This picture is actually from our most recent church trip but I don't have a picture from our first church experience together because it was the first time I saw you since sunrise. Now I look forward to Sunday evenings because I get to learn.

A few adventures later we, one day we decided to ditch all of our responsibilities & play hooky.

I ditched school & you ditched work & we ate food & drove around, found a beach & fell asleep, because we both needed it.

This was the day that you picked me up with Zac & the Beans.

We adventured to the east & took swing pictures & we all learned that I'm a terrible model. We went to McDonalds to steal wifi & I climbed a lot of trees, cause I'm a little bit of a monkey. Then we went back all the way into town because you weren't feeling well & we drove up to your house & then back north to celebrate Pomai's birthday. By the end of the night I just remember not wanting to get out of the car...

Ope, then two days ago we all went bowling & then went to Zippy's, cause that's the only place we ever eat hahaha, just kidding. You lied & were totally awesome at bowling & Ikaia got me two strikes which was pretty rad cause that meant I didn't lose. But we jammed & we sang & we said goodnight 6 times before we were both too tired to hold on. We probably broke about 5 wax cups & recorded Zac & Ikaia cooking spaghetti about 10 times. I think my favorite part was hearing you sing your originals because they're my new favorites. 

& then for all the times I don't have pictures...

     How about that one time we met at mililani again, or the other time when we watched a movie together that was terrible but it was okay because I was with you & you sang me songs after. I feel like there were more times when we were together & there probably are but really, 

This is just the beginning.

Until next time, 

Bye.

By the way, I write so openly on here because no one actually reads my blog, this is just where I go to talk stories with myself. So don't tell anyone. 

      

It's Not the...

End.

             After spending over a year & a half with someone how do you begin to consume the thought of changing your ways? 

             I've never been the one to get caught up on someone after a relationship ends. We break up, we stay friends & everything is okay. But what happens when someone walks into your life & completely turns my life into a hurricane? What do I do when someone changes my life without even meaning to?

I am single. After 3 years of being in two relationships, my life is starting fresh as I find myself.

Well, it's actually a lot more complex than just that. Peter & I are no longer lovers, but friends that love each other, does that make sense? Is it even possible? -I think it is. It is very possible to love someone as something differently other than a lover, the reason you date someone is because of how amazing they are & how much you want them in your life. I want to keep him in my life because he is awesome, an awesome friend.

             And that's why we decided that it was best to start again, as friends. We could both feel it, it wasn't the same. Our love was changing, just like the seasons. Being friends has always come naturally to Peter & I, but being lovers was something that we constantly had to work on, we had to keep building & it was an effort, just like a relationship should be. But it wasn't natural. I met Peter when we were 14 & we only started to date when he was closer to 16. We broke it off when we were both about 17, that's a long time to be with someone at such young ages, we've seen each other grow, he was the reason for my growth & I was the reason for his & maybe that's why I was clinging on, because I loved what we did for each other. When we fist met it wasn't anything spectacular, no wedding bells, or floating hearts or even a hello. He avoided me because I was "too big of a personality to handle" it took us a year to finally start being friends. I was his first best friend, the first person he could tell anything to knowing that I wouldn't judge him, I still am. 

           In finding structure to this chaotic post, my point is: It's not the end but in fact, a fresh start. Most people feel that when you end a relationship with someone that's that, it's done. But to me, it's an opportunity for the new. I've met new people, I've tried new things, my life is starting new- it's a new season. 

Finally, here's a picture of the both of us together. 

This is us as friends.

This is the way it's supposed to be.

This is Peter, everyone.

This is us.

Until next time, 

-Bye.

The Act of Discovering...

Myself

Friday. July. 26. 2013.

        I've learned three things so far this summer:

1. Never forget sunscreen is your best friend, year round.

2. Never let someone rain on your parade, you run that bitch & you run it hard.

3. Never apologize for an extended absence. 

               I won't ask for an excuse of my absence but I've just been having a spectacular time. I think I've grown more this summer than any other. Recently I just got back home to Hawaii after a three week trip up on the good ole' continental U.S. My first stop was the golden state, California, then to sin city, Las Vegas, Nevada, then to the state first in flight with some premium red necks, North Carolina. But i'll leave the recap for another day.

               Today the sun is shining bright & I'm having another day home alone. Which is perfect, I get me time. You see, I've had a lot of me time this past week. With having come home a week before my boyfriend did I had a lot of time to learn about myself & how tough I really am.                         I've discovered, I'm not as strong & independent as I've led myself on to be.

I didn't even spend every night solo but when I did it was beyond aggravating. With no one to occupy my thought process but myself I really had the opportunity to let my mind wonder into every square inch of my brain. I undcovered some nostalgia, recipes, creativity, but mostly some really deep hate for... myself

SHOCKER!

A teenager who finds every imperfection in herself & mentally destroys herself about each one, I'm so complex & totaaaaally deep. 

No.

That's kind of why I felt motivated to dedicate an entire post to a subject not taken in as a whole by most. I know whenever I read an article an article of an interview or lesson about self love & respect for yourself I don't really feel all that connected to the speaker. I found, for myself personally, that it's because they never go into the details about how bad it truly be. Because no one else can get inside you head quiet like you can. 

Anyway, I won't teach you a lesson on it because they're all kind of generic & I can put every single one into the exact same synopsis. All I can tell you is that it's okay to take pride in your personal accomplishments (no matter how big or small) that it's okay to wake up in the morning & feel gorgeous, skinny, successful, lazy, confident, happy, etc...That it's okay to accept yourself because if you don't, no one else will.

When you find acceptance, you'll start living. I promise.

You'll live a little bit more daring, adventurous, blissfully. 

You'll learn more about yourself & than you ever thought was possible.

You'll discover what it's really like to like what you like.

I learned that I like avocados.

A lot.

I learned that I like drinking cooled hot cocoa in hotel

 lobbies& listening to beautiful voices that play 

such amazing live music 

& play their pride 

like it's nobodies

 business.

I've learned that I still love graffiti & I miss it bunches.

Just find yourself or create yourself.

Find inspiration from the land, the cities, the people, the unknown.

Build yourself from the ground up.

"The greatest right we have is just being yourself."

Until next time, 

-Bye.

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Finding Joy In...

Adventure.

June. 5. 2013

    Please excuse my absence as I have been enjoying every possible everything.

The feeling of overwhelming freedom has engulfed me ever since summer has begun- & it is absolutely stunning. 

I feel no diction will ever do these feelings justice.

The rush that overcomes my body when I wake up with the sun regardless of how late I fell asleep, the aroma of the crisp buttered toast & brewing coffee in the early morning, the chime of the waves as they crash along the shorelines at 1 in the morning when my friends & I dare to take a late night dip in the pacific.

It's  the most simple things in which I find thrill.

As of lately my days have been running into each other & overlapping- I can't remember which day I did what or what day of the week it is. I've become an expert at the late night drive, I've mastered the skill of compiling necessities into my van for the unexpected adventures.

Learning to live a little more. To do what I want & find as much joy as I can with every opportunity. Living a little more daring, on the edge. 

I love it.

I'm infatuated with learning about everyone. 

Hunting for new friends & adventures.

Summer Accomplishments (thus far):

• sneaking into the resort's hot tub
• open trunk beach nights
• thrifting
• early morning beach star gazing
• stay cations
• Bike rides
• mountain runs
• long walks
• luminescent algae 
• BBQ's
• waimea bay night jumping
• Bonfires
• beach days

There are so much more, but for now I'm about to take a walk to the market to get breakfast sushi with  Pete.

Until next time, 

Bye.

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A Day At The Bay

On a Monday

May. 28. 2013

   A day well spent if I do say so myself.

My skin is tingly, my face is red, my hair is dreading & my skin has deepened.

Yesterday was Memorial Day- with no original plans I began my day at the beach with my Mom & her friends (which are my two aunts) Not quiet the way I pictured my Memorial Day but I was pleased none the less.

   Okay, well as soon as I got a call from some of my friends I bailed.

I ended up at Pete's dad's house whilst awaiting the arrival of my friends. Even thought Peter wasn't home I got to chill with his step mom, Kylie (she's spectacular) & we got to experience some intense bonding time. She was there to experience & help with the first time of locking my car keys in my car. Luckily I left my windows ajar & we were able to straighten a wire hanger, attach a bungee cord to it with a hook & fish my car keys out. It was memorable none the less. 

With the arrival of Rachel we made our way down to Waimea & set ourselves closest to Jump  Rock** We ran into a couple friends who accompanied us. Our final crew consisted of Rachel, Tanya, Noah, Kekahu, Becky & Lani. An eclectic group if I do say so myself but a fun one in the end. We snorkeled, we dove to the depths, we climbed rocks, we found refuge in floaties & inner tubes & rolled around in the sand until we were coated from ears to toes.

Immaculate would be the synopsis. To be able to spend my day with a group of friends from all over, bringing their own style of leisure with them and spreading it through one another. The feeling of being able to sit 20 feet under the ocean & feeling the pressure & silence. To look up & see the sun rays gleaming through the salt water surface. The sense of relief and calmness when you kick off the ocean floor & the sand disperse  beneath your weight and you float to the surface. The first gasp of air inhaled when you're finally back where the sun lies on the ocean.

I love being able to see the new world stored beneath a surface. Rachel & I met a turtle friend while venturing out to the smaller islands. He was a green sea turtle, a medium sized fellow with a scruffy shell that hosted some sea friends and algae. But he was our special friend,  he represented strength, he kept on swimming & living even though he was missing his front flipper. Assuming it was bitten off by a shark a while back since it was in the process of healing, to play it safe Rach & I swam in.

We made new friends that day, along with new memories of #tanyahaslife & whales are a conversation starter. With little battle scares of baby jelly fish we will spend our next few days finding salvation inside while our new summer skin heals. 

Later that night we ended up at a house party BBQ type of get together & that was just awkward. Dev, Rach, Noel & myself found ourselves bailing & adventuring to foodland to get candy & plan events. It was fun being an SBJJ for a few, though. 

Until next time, 

-Bye.

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Sunday Summary on a Monday

 Week 2

May.27.2013

     

     I have officially began the best summer of my life. 
     I really don't know if it's truly going to be, but I can only set my hopes so high.
      
 Please excuse my absents, the concluding week of my junior year was insane, hectic, dare I even say chaotic! I had copious amounts of homework, tests & finals- so much that I thought i'd might actually flunk my school year. The teachers just kept it right on coming weather we were ready or not.

  Kicking off summer the right way my first order of business was to take a much needed cat nap with Peter, to say the least I was passed out on his living room sofa with my mouth opened wide and I ended up skipping snack fest & I NEVER skip out on snack fest!

  The succeeding days to follow consisted of a lot of gas money, eating & experiencing new things. Day two summer started at six in the morning, took my daily outside shower, got dressed & headed out the door all the way to town. My first stop was UH to do some volunteering at the Special Olympics. I got hooked up with this sweet gig by my friend Rachel, she's representing the East side of O'ahu's Miss America's Outstanding Teen (I know, my friends are amazing) We ended up having a blast interacting with the participants, exchanging autographs with some of the football players & people with special needs, played some soccer & even got to say hello to some furry friends all while serving up free shave ice to anyone spectators passing by.

 After volunteering we made our way over to the districts high school to watch one of Rachel's good friend's & main director of a large dance academy in his annual dance concert for Hype5-0. The show was spectacular! People of all ages were shaking what their momma gave um' & it was overall a great experience.

 As soon as the concert was over we rushed out to head back all the way to North Shore so my parents could meet Peter's parents for the first time after a year & a half, YIKES! The steak dinner went swell & everyone was so filled to the brim, towards the end of the night Pete & I met up with some friends for a full moon bonfire down at the beach. We went for a jump off the Waimea rock & were entertained by some random military men & their beer & good spirits. They walked across the burning coals & told their stories with such enthusiasm. To say the least my day was engaging from start to finish.

   Yesterday I got to spend some quality time with an old friend before she moves away across the Pacific & continental U.S to Maryland. We shopped & ate & laughed. I helped her lighten her load by bringing home- two garden gnomes (which sat comfortably in the front seat) a dessert rose, a bed of lavender that's budding, a wooden bear, her beta fish & some other miscellaneous nic-nacs that were weighing them down. We also went thrifting & i discovered some treasures. A red flannel, a cardigan & a nice summer tank top.  

   Today is Memorial Day & I intend to spend it with my family( mostly my mom & her friends) down at the beach on this gorgeous sunny day. 

Until next time, 

                                                                                                                                            -Bye.

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Sunday Summary

  Week 1

May. 19. 2013

        

    Begin the countdown: T-minus 5 days remaining until the start of summer freedom. 

    Words cannot begin to express how incredibly ecstatic I am to be so close to endless summer days, where I forget the day of the week & everyone breaths sweet freedom. Where sitting inside becomes unbearable & adventures are never ending. 

Summer, please come faster.

    This past week was extremely busy. With class finals & graduations up the yin yang, it was difficult to find time to just relax. With just one week left I need to make up all my back up work & begin planning out my work plan for the AP summer assignments. 

    Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday:

This week the only things that were worth writing about are; 

• Graduation
• Pad Thai Date Night
• Cheer-leading

This week was the last week for the senior class & on their last day on campus my friends & I all took a group photo to remember the crew. 

Rolling into my senior year I wanted to try something new & totally out of my comfort zone. Since i convinced my friend Rachel to get back into soccer she convinced me to cheer with her. Something I swore i'd never do, which totally supports the cliche of "never say never"

Following my first cheer practice (that I must admit was a lot more difficult than I ever thought cheering was going to be) my friend Rachel & I went on a spontaneous dinner date down in Haleiwa at Haleiwa Thai. We had Pad Thai & Spring Rolls- which was AMAZING & hit the spot- then we went to Scoop o' Paradise for some home made ice cream. Raspberry Cream Fudge was a bit too heavy after such a big meal for two so it made me uncomfortably & regretfully full. 

INCOMPLETE