It's Not the...

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             After spending over a year & a half with someone how do you begin to consume the thought of changing your ways? 

             I've never been the one to get caught up on someone after a relationship ends. We break up, we stay friends & everything is okay. But what happens when someone walks into your life & completely turns my life into a hurricane? What do I do when someone changes my life without even meaning to?

I am single. After 3 years of being in two relationships, my life is starting fresh as I find myself.

Well, it's actually a lot more complex than just that. Peter & I are no longer lovers, but friends that love each other, does that make sense? Is it even possible? -I think it is. It is very possible to love someone as something differently other than a lover, the reason you date someone is because of how amazing they are & how much you want them in your life. I want to keep him in my life because he is awesome, an awesome friend.

             And that's why we decided that it was best to start again, as friends. We could both feel it, it wasn't the same. Our love was changing, just like the seasons. Being friends has always come naturally to Peter & I, but being lovers was something that we constantly had to work on, we had to keep building & it was an effort, just like a relationship should be. But it wasn't natural. I met Peter when we were 14 & we only started to date when he was closer to 16. We broke it off when we were both about 17, that's a long time to be with someone at such young ages, we've seen each other grow, he was the reason for my growth & I was the reason for his & maybe that's why I was clinging on, because I loved what we did for each other. When we fist met it wasn't anything spectacular, no wedding bells, or floating hearts or even a hello. He avoided me because I was "too big of a personality to handle" it took us a year to finally start being friends. I was his first best friend, the first person he could tell anything to knowing that I wouldn't judge him, I still am. 

           In finding structure to this chaotic post, my point is: It's not the end but in fact, a fresh start. Most people feel that when you end a relationship with someone that's that, it's done. But to me, it's an opportunity for the new. I've met new people, I've tried new things, my life is starting new- it's a new season. 

Finally, here's a picture of the both of us together. 

This is us as friends.

This is the way it's supposed to be.

This is Peter, everyone.

This is us.

Until next time, 

-Bye.