Myself
Friday. July. 26. 2013.
I've learned three things so far this summer:
1. Never forget sunscreen is your best friend, year round.
2. Never let someone rain on your parade, you run that bitch & you run it hard.
3. Never apologize for an extended absence.
I won't ask for an excuse of my absence but I've just been having a spectacular time. I think I've grown more this summer than any other. Recently I just got back home to Hawaii after a three week trip up on the good ole' continental U.S. My first stop was the golden state, California, then to sin city, Las Vegas, Nevada, then to the state first in flight with some premium red necks, North Carolina. But i'll leave the recap for another day.
Today the sun is shining bright & I'm having another day home alone. Which is perfect, I get me time. You see, I've had a lot of me time this past week. With having come home a week before my boyfriend did I had a lot of time to learn about myself & how tough I really am. I've discovered, I'm not as strong & independent as I've led myself on to be.
I didn't even spend every night solo but when I did it was beyond aggravating. With no one to occupy my thought process but myself I really had the opportunity to let my mind wonder into every square inch of my brain. I undcovered some nostalgia, recipes, creativity, but mostly some really deep hate for... myself
SHOCKER!
A teenager who finds every imperfection in herself & mentally destroys herself about each one, I'm so complex & totaaaaally deep.
No.
That's kind of why I felt motivated to dedicate an entire post to a subject not taken in as a whole by most. I know whenever I read an article an article of an interview or lesson about self love & respect for yourself I don't really feel all that connected to the speaker. I found, for myself personally, that it's because they never go into the details about how bad it truly be. Because no one else can get inside you head quiet like you can.
Anyway, I won't teach you a lesson on it because they're all kind of generic & I can put every single one into the exact same synopsis. All I can tell you is that it's okay to take pride in your personal accomplishments (no matter how big or small) that it's okay to wake up in the morning & feel gorgeous, skinny, successful, lazy, confident, happy, etc...That it's okay to accept yourself because if you don't, no one else will.
When you find acceptance, you'll start living. I promise.
You'll live a little bit more daring, adventurous, blissfully.
You'll learn more about yourself & than you ever thought was possible.
You'll discover what it's really like to like what you like.
I learned that I like avocados.
A lot.
I learned that I like drinking cooled hot cocoa in hotel
lobbies& listening to beautiful voices that play
such amazing live music
& play their pride
like it's nobodies
business.
I've learned that I still love graffiti & I miss it bunches.
Just find yourself or create yourself.
Find inspiration from the land, the cities, the people, the unknown.
Build yourself from the ground up.
"The greatest right we have is just being yourself."
Until next time,
-Bye.
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