Just Breath & Exhale

Really.

When life decides to challenge you just remember it is given to you because God knows you can handle it, you are prepared. 

Lately,

I've felt as if I've been starting copious amounts of; tasks, projects, ideas, & leaving each one incomplete. Honestly, I'm not even sure why. I've been trying to conjure up every reason I continue to discontinue. Eventually I just ended up with a plethora of teenage reasons verifying why I can be excused from completing life.

So-

I narrowed them all down until the abundance of reasons became a mere; 3.

1. I'm scared of failing- but aren't we all? 
2. I fail to push myself beyond my mental limits, I stop before complexity & therefor am left with just an idea that will always be undeveloped.
3. I'm lazy, straight up, seniorits.

Depressing to think that so many people are afraid of the same thing, but yet only so few are willing to take that chance of possible rejection. Why?

Why are we all so afraid of failing? Who will we disappoint? Our families? Friends? Dog?

Personally, I think we're just afraid to disappoint ourselves. WE, as humans are our harshest critics. With the ability to see every minute detail that contributes to the climatic build we become so critical of each step we take & our capabilities. WE tend to pin ourselves down for each & every single one of our minuscule slips instead of  encouraging our triumphs, no more how big or small. I know that I personally set unrealistic goals for myself & I wind up devastated with anything short of perfection.

I chase something I will NEVER obtain.

I chase perfection.

I feel that whenever I begin to grow with imagination & I fill with inspiration; I stop myself from completing my thoughts, from thoroughly executing a game plan, from building it into completion. It's beyond aggravating & yet I continue to do it.

I invision greatness & cut myself short because I doubt my capabilities. 

I sell myself short.

Honestly,

have you ever given up an opportunity because you "know" you aren't capable.

What makes you incapable of doing it? Is it physical? OR is it mental?

Mostly everything in life is a mind game. A mind test. You're going to have to challenge yourself & demolish each mental block to be allow growth within yourself. 

One day I hope to grow; vivacious, effervescent, wise, clever, strong, content, passionate, grateful, creative, inspirational & happy.

I want to be happy

with everything

with life.

I partake in three sports; cheer, soccer & track.

I'm a part of the green club, the art club, minoring on the prom committee & Christians on campus.

I have a full seven period school schedule- including one AP class.

I exercise in my spare time & focus on clean eating.

I do yoga.

I have physical therapy.

I'm applying for colleges.

I love to stay out as much as possible, I love my weekends.

To say the least I am a pretty occupied teenager

but at the same time I'm one of the laziest people I know.

I'm working on self motivation because there's always room for improvement. It doesn't mean I'm  insufficient, it just means that I know there will always be someone out there who will challenge me.

I'm ready to take on that challenge.

So life, I challenge you to take me on an adventure. An adventure of a lifetime.

Until next time, 

Bye.